Joe's Journal

11:51pm: I should just die..
I swear Im the biggest asshole I ever knew... my sisters wedding is Saturday... tonight was her practice rehersal thing followed by the dinner and since im walking her down the isle I had to be there. I am so tired / stressed with school night school and work no one understands why im in such a bad mood anymore.. I bottled up my emotions and im about to explode any minute.. So yea back to my sister.. I didnt goto her dinner after the practice cause I wanted to come home and relax.. but of course im the bad guy for doing that, she calls me up late tonight and bitches saying how she is so appreciated that she has me as a brother, a brother who doesnt show up to her own wedding dinner and shit like that.. shes like ill remember this for when you get married etc..etc.. right now I dont give a fuck, she dont even deserve to get married shes the biggest bitch I ever met. Her boyfriend could do so much better and that my friends is why im ALWAYS the asshole..

untill next time.. fuck you and fuck off

1:01am: Wow someone loves me..
I just looked and saw that Jeff posted omg I LOVE YOU MAN *gives a beer* lmfao anyway lets rant about today!!!

W00T I went to work... AND I GOT PAYED OMG YES I GOT PAYED! 95 BUCKS BABY lmao suckage pay I know but I didnt work that much this week.. sucky part is that I requested some days off for this week so that means another suckage pay on the way oh well what can I do... anyway theres this lady I work with her daughter is going threw some drug problems and ran away from home.. she came into work crying scared for her daughter worryed she was dead somewhere.. being the caring person I am, I cheered her up and told her not to think that.. shes a awesome person and I feel bad for her but anyway she asked me for some Half way house information because they found her daughter and shes now in rehab thing is its only 20 days.. after that she has no where to go because her family has had enough of her bullshit... so Laura (The Mom) asked me to get info cause I told her about my dad being a alcholic and hes been a halfway house.. so today I got home from work and got her info.. I went back up to work because I didnt have anything else better to do I gave her the info and told her what to do.. she almost cryed again I feel like im doing something good in my life for once... I hope everything turns out ok because shes such a great person anyway not much to talk about today but I NEED SEX! Yea its been 4 or so weeks.. im sex deprived already is that normal!

Thats right im opening a sex site! I told Erin to goto a porn site because she needs love... www.bangmycock.com and its not even a site! Im gonna order that url and make my sex world and be the biggest Sex internet whore in the world LMFAO how funny would that be... shit anyway long enough post for today huh?

Untill Next time.. Fuck off ;)

11:42pm: Shit...
WELL LOOKY HERE SEXAHOLICJOE IS BACK ONLINE BAYBEE! Not like anyone fucking reads this shit anymore anyway right? lol but um today was pretty bad, I mean real bad... lets begin!
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Well today school the morning sucked... taking 2 hours of testing sucks seriously, after that Mrs A. flipped on me for no reason.. so I flipped back at her for being a bitch so yea.. bad day at school and then I was late for work today thx to a accedent on the road... I walk in and today is payday its now 3 weeks since I been payed because they say "My paper work hasnt gone threw yet" Which is total bullshit I just cant take this shit anymore...for real im about to have a nervous breakdown and its coming soon I feel it inside... Anyway tommorow is gonna be bad.. I feel it already but be sure to tune into Joe TV to find out what happens tommorow!
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Untill then... Fuck off ;)

8:34pm: Hey!
HOLLA HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2:22pm: Just when you think things are great...
You know theres always something to remind you theres that little bump in the road and what a perfect example.. My sister this year gets engagged and wins the lottery for 6 grand.. well I just received a phone call from my sister on her cell phone crying her eyes out.. I knew something bad was going to happen.. she told me she was just involved in a car accident.. a guy came out of no where and nailed there new car head first. The car is destroyed and my sister has neck pains and chest pains.. im crying just wrtting this out because today is my nieces birthday to top it all off. I love my sister so god damn much and I hope to god she is ok and nothing is seriously wrong with her.. just could everyone keep her in there prayers or whatever and hope for the best out of all this..

10:02pm: ..
FUCK MY SCHOOL AND EVERYONE IN IT I HOPE YOU ALL BURN IN HELL

6:55pm: Today
Well today was alright I guess. Me and my mom are actually talking again which is good. lol I just read my comment on my last post and Jeff told me to goto the counsler and what did I do today? I talked to the Guidence Counsler. She told me I will be able to graduate but I have some work to do. I gotta goto summer school which I knew was coming so I dont care much. Shes gonna get me into a free summer school because it cost $200 per course and thats a lot of money the only thing is, is that its night school. Anyway ill goto summer school and get some credits I need right? Then she wants me to join this program in which ill have a job get payed and then get a credit for school so theres another one which is nice. So yea according to her I will be able to graduate next year. Tommorow I plan on talking to her again cause I have a idea for our school kinda like a event and im gonna see if I can get it into full blow. Its basically a talent event you group up lip sing and dance to your favorite song to win cash prizes so yea that would be cool. Anyway out school is gonna have a final trip for the end of the year where gonna goto Six Flags.. that would be fun cause I remember it last year.. anyway today was a ok day in school. I talked to Stacy my ex and she told me to give her a hug and I did then we ended up kissing so I think we might be back together.. oh god how love works in weird ways... lol anyway thats the news for today holla back lol <-- sorry inside joke

Things To Do:

Math Project
History Homework - Due Friday.
Tommorow check with guidence counsler.

9:46pm: hey..
Since its been awhile since I wrote a real update I think now would be the time to do so. Well whats been new with Joe? Nothing much at all lets see school is almost over and I think I did worse then I did last year. I really wanna graduate next year but I just dont see it happen with all the shit I still need to make up... which sucks it really does its sometimes depressing how my friends are gonna be gone and im gonna still be sitting in that room learning useless nothing. Anyway I broke up with my girlfriend about 3 days ago and its because I just didnt see it working out between us. but now im thinking was it a mistake? I mean I dunno....we didnt really break up but are on a break.. ok we broke up.. But i told her I didnt wanna be apart forever.. so yea? Anyway today I started the new me.. the new attitude im going to have towards school, yea I should of started this way back that way i wouldnt be so far behind but its to late for that now. So yea im gonna start paying more attention in school and im going to actually do my homework and any extra credit that I can.. I usualy forget to do so, so im going to make a to do list in my journal.. it might help it might not but I hope it does.. lol so yea if you see a list just ignore it its only for me anyway. Hmm whatelse should I talk about.. oh yea two people in school hate me because I stuck up for my friend. I mean doesnt that suck how you stick up for a friend because they argue with someone else then the next day there ok but now you have someone that still hates you for what you said? Yea thats how it is right now with me.. I stuck up for my friend Cat when she got into arguments with Scott and Crystal and now they both hate me but thats there fault right? ... Prom is right around the corner and im kinda excited.. Im suppose to go with Stacy my girlfriend.. well ex.. ugh whatever but I dunno if thats going to happen I guess we will have to wait and see, The plan is May 30,2003 - Night of the prom wooohooo then after the prom im going to Christys house for a party which should be interesting...and then May 31 where going down the shore for the day should be fun I guess.. would be funner if I was together with her but I dunno anyway this was a nice long update for yall huh? Hope to update more often but yea maybe if I have the time.. anyway talk to yaz later.

10:33pm: HI KT HX
OMG IM SO HYPER AND ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I BEEN THIS HYPER SO EVERYONE ENJOY THE MO

8:53pm: Look!
Hey look guys im still alive!!! *wonders if anyone even reads this anymore lmao*

2:38pm: Im Sorry..
This is to certain people who i hurt and who deserve to read this...

Let me explain something no everyone has the perfect life exspceally me... i know people out there have a horrible life and i know i do for that fact... I get stressed out about 99.3% of my life which isnt healthy at all but its true.. i come on the computer just to talk to friends and have fun and try to forget about my troubles in real life.. its like my place to get away from it all... but then it just happens that im so pissed,stressed or whatever that i flip out on people and take my anger out on them just to make me feel better and release what i really feel... Its wrong i know and i hate myself for it.. I really wanna forget about my asshole ways i do i swear to god i do.. i want my friends back i want to come back online and just have fun...

People who deserve something
Emmy- Emmy you always been there for me... back in the old dark ages we were together and i broke up with you for the gayest reason of all because my anger got over me.... Till today you still talk to me your still there and recently my anger got to me again and i flipped on you again.. Emmy i just want you to know im sorry and that your the best person ever to be alive... i just want you to know that i love you on a friendship level of course ;x and that im sorry for everything that i EVER done to you from back in the day till now.

Lin Another person who was always there for me... Lin you and me had a lot in common weather it was from our real life problems to the 3 hour phone calls we would spend on the phone at 2 in the morning. Why did i get mad at you for telling me to fuck off isnt right at all exspecially since you always listened to me... between my carly battles or that fact the battles with jesse you were the first person i turned to because you always made me feel better and then it was all gone because once again my anger took me over... I know this doesnt cut it as much but im sorry Lin from the bottom of my heart i just want to be able to talk to you again.... have 324903 hour phone calls and just be able to laugh with you again... lin im sorry...

Jesse I dont know how many times i tryed to get along with you but you just seem to wanna mess around all the time and i just talk to you at the wrong times.. Im sorry Jesse for whatever i did it was fun hanging out with you when i was with carly it was fun messing around on palace but then the times you made me mad when you just acted stupid...

Carly Your another great person but we all have our downfalls i think going out was a bad idea because our friendship was so strong.. im sorry for the fights we had im sorry for the way i treated you... your a incredible person and i hope you stay the way you are now because in the long run you will be the happiest person in the world and i just hope you can forgive me
I just want everyone to know im sorry.... For some of the things i done sorry wont cut it... but atleast you all know that i just feel bad... and im trying to change my old ways i really am you all just dont know how hard it is at times....

4:20pm: Friends only..
If you want to read my journal just post a comment and ill add you but till then im locking it all up for friends only so just let me know and ill add you...